Today I realized that I am slowly growing up, but I didn’t really realize how much growing up has changed areas of my life until basically this moment. This past weekend seemed to be the epitome of everything that has changed in my life..here goes:
When I was in high school I always felt like I had to be accepted and that if you didn’t have a big group of friends you weren’t cool..this past weekend a bunch of people from high school went camping, I decided to decline the invitation as I opted for spending the time with other friends, it isn’t that I don’t like my high school friends, it’s just that we have all changed from who we were back then and basically I’m learning that the old adage “there is safety in numbers” isn’t always true…One of my good friends has shown me that sometimes it is better to have a few close friends, rather than to have a big group of friends who are people you can hang out with, but who you never really get to know personally..that’s not to say that I don’t enjoy the high school friends any longer, it’s just that it comes to a point where you have to move on from the past..(we had good times don’t get me wrong, but you need to keep old memories along with making new ones) but sometimes you need to make new friends in order to be able to have people to enjoy the future with…. “make new friends, but keep the old, one is silver and the other gold.”
Also I have have begun to realize that with the aging process comes freedom..this past weekend I drove downtown Toronto..which is a big feat for a girl who comes from a town with dirt roads and the biggest obstacles facing you are random deer and maybe a stray cow or two…it was a ‘different’ experience..but it was actually exhilarating... for me, probably not for my passengers though… “Rachel, watch for streetcars, random pedestrians and bicyclists…!!!!!!” Thanks to my great cheerleading team we made it through Toronto alive…yay!..and it made me realize that things I would have never had the courage to do even a month ago I am able to do because a) I have friends who are good with maps..and b) it’s okay to be scared of new experiences, but the only way that you will know if you like them or not is if you try, you might miss out on something wonderful if you are too scared to take the chance…takes chances..make mistakes..and onto the chopsticks..
So when I was in Toronto I got to try real dim sum…which was actually quite tasty! As a child I was a very picky eater..well even now I can be very picky..so when I was faced with shrimp dumplings and battered squid I was a little leery about trying them…but it turned out that the shrimp was actually very enjoyable! And the squid..well not so much..I even ate onions and peppers..both of which I would not have eaten before…anyways back to the learning experiences..I tried eating with chopsticks, under the wonderful coaching of my two pro-chopsticks friends..and although I probably would have not managed to get a morsel of food in my mouth with the chopsticks it was great trying something different…and having people there that encourage you, even if it is something that small..so lesson learned..although things might look different and seem scary at the time..it is worth it to try because if you never try it you might end up missing out on something you could have enjoyed!